I went into the Air Force as a Lifer they call it, I had all intentions of retiring from it. It was never easy after I went overseas. I had a great Commander but then he moved on and a new one came in and he pretty much started the downward spiral of destroying me, he took my rank from me over me accidentally using my Government travel card for a non-authorized purchase. It was a few days before I was leaving for Iraq and that card and my personal card were from the same bank and looked similar I inadvertently pulled out the wrong one and used it. It was a stupid $28 charge but he felt the need to destroy me. I changed units shortly after and things were better, I wasn't sure now if I really wanted to stay in or not. I eventually decided to and reenlisted and then I came back stateside and it continued! It was great at first with a good Commander then another change in command came and the new Commander just hated women in general! I mistakenly made the choice to date someone in my unit, things were great then we hit some rough patches and led to a no contact order (military PFA) well we tried to work things out and did for a bit longer and they would not remove the no contact order so we violated it, then one Memorial day weekend it got bad he pushed me down the stairs and my instincts was call the police and I did, not thinking I was going to get in trouble for violating the no contact order. It just spiraled down and down from there. No matter what I tried to do to move forward my Commander insisted knocking me back 5 steps! Mind you I lost more rank and got treated like complete shit! What did my ex get a slap on the damn wrist! At this point I was being sabotage and it led to a lot of depression, hating life, no pride in being in the military, no pride in wearing my uniform, I just wanted out! I hated life and everything! I knew the only way I could get out was to go to the Chaplin and say I was wanting to take my life. I was depressed and the thoughts always crossed my mind I don't think I would have every acted fully on it. But my life was pretty much destroyed by all this I was thousands a miles away from home, family and had no body supporting or on my side. I spent a lot of time in a mental health hospital till my final 2 weeks to get out, my commander tried to get me out dishonorably and my parents hired a civilian lawyer to fight it. I was an Airman with numerous of Airman of the year rewards for the entire base from my first two assignments, I was on honor guard and I had over 14 medals no way was that ass going to take my honorable discharge. I choose to try to stay in Oklahoma after getting out and I did from August till January worked at local hospital and I honestly hit rock bottom I didn't turn to drugs or alcohol but to spending! Spending money I didn't have and writing bad checks leading me to spending a night in jail. It became my addiction it was what gave me my high and made me feel worthy buying things I wanted. I had become like I was not worth life, felt like a failure and for several years after this I felt that way. Honestly I have felt that way many times until I started Beachbody! I eventually moved back to PA because it was what I needed to get my life back on track. This whole event in my life made me stronger and realize that no matter what I am always worth it and that I will never give up!!! I will go out with a fight and come out on top!!! Nobody has the right to ever sabotage anyone the way I was nor treat anyone the way I was treated! And everyone should never give up and put up the fight no matter what!!
I am now a Veteran, a single mom, struggling I am still picking and choosing what bills to pay, and choosing between a home and a car. I have no car right now because a home is more important!! I have spent hours and hours apply for thousands of jobs but for what to just waste time when I have something right in front of me! I have an amazing opportunity right in front of me to change my life and my situation and gain financial freedom! I just have to take the bull by the horns and go with it!! And I have and will continue to because I know this is the only opportunity that will allow me to control my future and my journey. I don’t want my life controlled by someone else. I will control it and by doing so I will change the situation at hand. I am taking control of my life and creating my own life by design as a Independent Team Beachbody coach, and Coach Summit is our biggest event ever it is a game changer, training to help my business and my situation and endless personal development to change me as a person hence why I call it my Personal Development trip!! It is a must to attend!! And unfortunately life right now has me struggling to get there I have part of it paid already my event ticket, but no travel transportation planned yet. I have been working hard to sell things to raise money and working 24/7 to get my business going but I am unsure time will allow it to happen before next month when my trip is!! I have always been one to pay it forward and help everyone in need when I am able to! As a living I help change and save lives. I have to swallow my own pride and as for help which I am not one to do so. Please know all help is graciously appreciated and I will find a way to repay it forward to others for the help I receive. Bless you all!
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Thank you
Abby